This is the last week of my baby’s 3rd month. Time flies!!

As I’m preparing to go back to work, many worries are surfacing now. It’s hard to let someone else take care of your precious little one, but bills need to be paid.

I worry about whether she will eat well, sleep well or get adequate play time when I’m away- she’s been refusing the bottle and is exclusively breastfeeding. The training for bottle feeding is not going well at the moment.

My biggest worry is the fear of losing my baby to SIDS. I have read and heard way too many stories of parents who put their baby down for a nap ignoring some safety guidelines and the baby sadly passes away. I cannot imagine the pain. So I pray that those entrusted to care for my little one will pay close enough attention.

It 0330hrs and I woke up about 1.5hrs ago from a nightmare. My baby covered herself with a loose blanket and suffocated. I was trying to do CPR but could barely get my hands to work right. I was screaming but noone could hear me. Woke up in a panic.

I’m happy to report that my baby is sleeping peacefully next to me. She actually woke up to feed and went back to sleep with a smile! Oblivious to the emotions I was contending with at that time.

Oh to be a mother!