Postpartum: Preparing to go back to work

My little one is 4 months and 11 days old today. I have one week left before I go back to work. How am I preparing?

I started by evaluating what my baby would need while I’m away. This is what I have come up with so far:

  • Her Mama!

The end!

Kidding, not kidding.

If only I did not have to worry about all the bills that need to be paid. My husband is a great provider, but the state of our economy has forced me back to work. Plus we need more income as we work on building a bright future for generations to come.

The real list:

  1. Food.

    My baby is exclusively breastfeeding right now. For the past several weeks we have been working on reintroducing a bottle. I have purchased multiple bottles, but the only one she likes so far is the Tommee tippee brand. She accepts the bottle 50% of the time.

  2. Babysitter. Daycare centers around here are so costly!

    Lucky for us, one of my sisters has kindly agreed to babysit for the foreseeable future! We are so blessed!!

  3. Her dad works very close from home so if needed, he can easily show up. Again, super blessed!

    I will definitely check in on her through the day.

I don’t think she needs much else from me. It is my first time doing this so any other needs will reveal themselves with time. I am very hopeful and feeling incredibly lucky to be where I am in life.

I worry about the first day being separated for more than 2 hours since birth. I feel that if we both survive the first day, the rest will be easier to navigate.

To all the mom’s who have been doing this, hats off! You are incredible!

Mom's nightmare

This is the last week of my baby’s 3rd month. Time flies!!

As I’m preparing to go back to work, many worries are surfacing now. It’s hard to let someone else take care of your precious little one, but bills need to be paid.

I worry about whether she will eat well, sleep well or get adequate play time when I’m away- she’s been refusing the bottle and is exclusively breastfeeding. The training for bottle feeding is not going well at the moment.

My biggest worry is the fear of losing my baby to SIDS. I have read and heard way too many stories of parents who put their baby down for a nap ignoring some safety guidelines and the baby sadly passes away. I cannot imagine the pain. So I pray that those entrusted to care for my little one will pay close enough attention.

It 0330hrs and I woke up about 1.5hrs ago from a nightmare. My baby covered herself with a loose blanket and suffocated. I was trying to do CPR but could barely get my hands to work right. I was screaming but noone could hear me. Woke up in a panic.

I’m happy to report that my baby is sleeping peacefully next to me. She actually woke up to feed and went back to sleep with a smile! Oblivious to the emotions I was contending with at that time.

Oh to be a mother!

Grateful

We’re officially in the 3rd week of my baby’s 3rd month!

On this day I am filled with gratitude. I have a beautiful baby girl who is thriving. She has found her voice and is quite outspoken with those she feels safe around. I don’t know how to express the pride I feel.

It’s a little past midnight and I’m the only one awake in this home. I wanted a moment to reflect on how my life has changed. Every way I turn I see blessings in abundance. What a wonderful time this is!

Let me sleep now before I go looking for cons. As a wise woman I saw on Instagram once said, “Trouble is sleeping. Let’s not wake it up!”